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Name: scifly
Location: United States
Gender: Male
Interests: the great outdoors, sports, philosophy.
Expertise: thinking, listening...
Occupation: A&P Mechanic; Student at UAA
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Member Since:
4/12/2004
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| I was contemplating relationships and love (not the romantic sort) and I think the lightbulb is finally on. How many people are searching for that perfect person? Someone to love them. Someone they can love. Now we all know there isn't a perfect person but we all have our ideals for both friendship and romance. Is it the good things or the quirks that we love? I think of my closest friends. I love them in spite of and partly because of their faults. In fact, it is their faults that magnify my love for them. You see, if I love someone because they are perfect, the expression of my love is not to its fullest extent. What do I mean? Take lake at this verse: "4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres." 1 Cor. 13:4-6 How can you be patient if there is nothing to try your patience? How can you be angered if there is nothing to anger you? To "keep no record of wrongs" implies that someone has wronged you. You see, it is the imperfections and tough times in life that enable us to express love more fully. Ever notice how people develop much greater bonds when they have been through tough times together? When life is easy our love is not fully exposed. In all of this our love is not complete or perfect. However, God's love is. I think how often I wish that I were perfect. I look at my faults ad failures with frustration. Here I offer my life to God and have nothing but broken pieces. But the amazing part is that God takes my inadequacies and uses me in spite of them and in my broken state God is glorified as His character is displayed in fullness of His love. Because of my brokenness God's love shines all the brighter and brings Him more glory. Isn't that amazing? Romans 11:29-36 | | |
| I sat down to write this evening only to find that I had nothing to say. How exciting. I suppose writing about about nothing is an option. I did have some guy call me this afternoon and try to hold a conversation with me even though he didn't know me. Seemed to think I was his friend who was just acting like it was a wrong number. He sounded like he was drunk or stoned. Started complaining about his feet burning and how he might have athletes foot. I told him I had to get back to work and he said something to the effect of "so that's how it's gonna be?" I hope he sobers up. Kinda sad. I'm sure this was an amusing story. Just another day.
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| So about 4 months ago I went in for pre-approval for a home loan. I was looking at homes and wanted to know what sort of rates, etc. I could expect. I was told I had immaculate credit and I could have approval for homes at least up to $180,000 (more than I cared for). Sweetness right? Well, I haven't bought a house as I decided to wait for a bit.
A couple days ago I went to get pre-approval for a consumer loan as I was thinking about some business opportunities. DENIED!!! Ridiculous right? How is that in just four months I can go from immaculate credit and pre-approval for a $180,000 home to being denied a $40,000 consumer loan?
As I called some people and did some research this is what I found. At the time I applied for the home loan, I was making school loan payments. That's what my credit was based on. I had never missed a payment. Perfect credit history. However, my loans are now in deferment because I am back in school half-time. So when I spoke to a loan specialist I asked them specifically what was being shown on my credit history-- Loans deferred. That's IT. No history of my payments over the last 4 years. Nope, just DEFERRED. That's crap.
There's one other "problem". I don't own a credit card. That's because I don't buy things I can't afford. I don't need a credit card. Well, apparently banks don't see 'no debt' as fiscal responsibility.
It irks me that if there is anyone who the banks should be willing to loan money to, it's someone like me. I do not live beyond my means. I'm low risk. No credit is apparently worse than bad credit. But what's worse is that I DO have a credit history. It's just not being reported. I guess it's time to pay a visit to the credit bureau.
Maybe the next thing I can do is sue somebody for screwing up my business opportunity by withholding my credit history.... Not really but this is ridiculous. It's just a game. Blasted system!
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| Words uttered in silence ring hollow in the void
Once earnest supplication now fallow
When efforts fail and motion is without heart
Depth of despair now hides in the shadows.
"Hope! Hope!" is the cry
Hope that what is seen is what's inside.
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| Working on a new website to promote Alaska and missions. http://www.missionflight.wordpress.com .
It's a work in progress but I hope to be updating as time goes on.
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